I can only laugh at myself… Four days ago I proudly declared that I was going to write a blog article every day for the month of November and I have only written one article since that day. Okay, this is a good exercise! The way I actually am and don’t want to be is showing up again and again until I learn the lesson. By the way, you DO know this is how life works, don’t you?
I am quick to acknowledge it is not always easy for me to make the change I want to make. Tons of excuses for not writing have been running through my head this weekend. Such as: “Oh it’s the weekend”, “The weather is nice got to be outside”, “I think Mika needs a walk”, “Oooh I haven’t been to sauna today must go now”, “It is important that I have fun, let’s meet up with friends”, “Yoga is definitely needed right now”, “I must be kind to myself I am actually tired/hungry, etc” or “This is actually the perfect time to put my summer clothes away”. And so it goes…
Luckily change has happened in how I deal with the “failure” (no, let’s not call it that but) “growth” of not following up on a great plan of mine. If this had been the situation ten years ago I would have been very annoyed with myself for not keeping the consistency I had set up for. Today I can smile at it. I realise I am continuously learning something valuable about myself. I now know I neither want to or have to be as hard on myself, or serious with everything, as I used to be. Things don’t need to be perfect. Nevertheless, I totally believe in consistency, and I want change. I actually think I crave change as my biggest fear is to stay the same…
You know the picture of a ladder people sometimes draw to illustrate that you need to take one step at the time before you reach the top/your goal? Well, I realise the ladder I have been visualising has had too few steps. Which implies that each step demands a big effort. To feel in flow with consistency instead of battling it I understand my perception of this ladder needs to change. And here is the change: From now on the ladder I visualise will be the same height as my first one, but this time with many, many steps. Yes exactly, less space between each step so that each step becomes more manageable.
To tell you how I really feel?: Still excited about writing an article every day. Yes I want to write to feel creative every day of November. Yes, I am still committing to this plan. Wishing you well! Annette X
