I suddenly felt like writing down a mix of fears I have overcome in the last few years. Maybe because I want to give myself a tap on the back? Haha. I am sure you have your own list too! And I am happy for you. I am into validating myself more for myself instead of seeking other people’s opinion, as that is probably what I have done a lot… Well, I know there is still a way to go to clear it all out. Anyway, here is a list where I am thrilled to be able to say tick, tick, tick:
- Overcoming a fear of speaking my truth when feeling super vulnerable
- Overcoming a fear of the cold
- Overcoming a fear of speaking on instagram
- Overcoming a fear of not always speaking perfect English when putting out stories on Instagram (yes, there is a lot of instagram here… It’s the place where it is easy to feel judged whatever you do or say)
- Overcoming a fear of not looking perfectly make-up’d or slide to the Paris-option to smooth out my face when speaking on instagram
- Overcoming a fear of showing I am happy when I know it can irritate other people
- Overcoming a fear of showing the paradise I currently live in when I know it is grey in places my family and friends live
- Overcoming a fear of showing too much enthusiasm
- Overcoming a fear of writing my truth in my blog articles instead of referring to other people’s opinion, or “lowering” my truth, by over-using expressions such as “I believe”, “from what I understand”, “according to”, etc.
- Overcoming a fear of not knowing what is going to happen (= trusting that everything happens in divine order)
I know I still want to work on:
- Believing in myself no matter what I believe other people think
- Remembering to stand up for myself instead of automatically go into people-pleasing
- Speaking my truth also when it feels awkward or I can feel my throat tightens
- Sharing my spirituality
- Showing more who I am. That is to be free, isn’t it?
- Daring to be more vulnerable
- Not holding back on being authentic (but first I need to know who my authentic self is, right??)
I want to be more me and I wish for you to be the most you can be of you! We are all one of a kind and no one has been or will ever be exactly like you or me again. I didn’t know I was not me before I fell dramatically into nothingness as my marriage broke down. Happy to say, not everyone needs a crisis in order to become more themselves. Some people are themselves very well already – maybe that is you.
Wishing you well! Annette X
